Mommy..i LOVE u~~~

Mommy..i miss u freaking much!! u are everything for me. u are my soul, u are my destiny and so u are my life. U make my life. i really need u mommy! sob300x...sedihnye YA ALLAH!! 


DULU...mak sgt manjakan aku. everything mak yg sediakan. she woke me up in the morning, cooked for me, hang out together,shopping,once i was in scholl, she is the one sent and pick up me up and everything we did together. blh dikatakan sume benda dlm hidup aku die yg uruskan.nak makan pon mak aku siap tolong hidangkan. aku x suruh pon, tp die yg buat sndiri.kalau shopping, she won`t allowed me to carry the stuffs.hemmmm..i don`t know why. terharunye...THANKS MOM!! 

bukan nyer aku x pandai berdikari..tp sbb aku dh terbiasa dgn kehidupan camtu.mak aku x penah ajar aku susah. and memang x dinafikan aku x penah susah. just told her, then she did it. best kan?? even she never ask me to be independent, ade jgk aku belajar berdikari sndiri. stakat kemas rumah, masak, cuci baju and all that thing i can do by myself. and yes, i did!! wlaupon sume rutin harian mak aku buat, aku pon tlg jgk tau.contohnye, time mak aku masak. aku tlg jgk..tp tolong tgk..hehehe..

SEKARANG....all that thing tinggal kenangan je. u know what?? mak aku sakit..she is having stroke or in bahasa medical nye CVA ( Cerebro Vascular Accident). i still remembered, tarikh keramat 11 februari 2011(JUMAAT) adalah hari yg plg menyedihkan buat aku. mak aku jatuh sakit pagi jumaat tu. it was such a big surprised for me and family. from the day and onwards everything has changed. sekelip mata je ALLAH tarik nikmat as a human being. but, no matter what happen, aku kena terima ketentuan ALLAH utk aku. since, she`s not well aku kena belajar berdikari dri sekarang. ye la, dulu kan aku selalu dpt layanan plg istimewa dri mak aku. tapi...sekarang x lagi. sob..sob..sob...i can`t believe it! everything has totally changed. skarng ni aku rase serba kurang. sedih sgt3...aku doakan mak cepat sembuh. aku rindu nk hidup mcm dulu. uhuk300x...


no matter what happens.life must go on..ya allah..please strenghten up my heart. i won`t be able to face your test. mommy..please believe me, i`ll do as u did to me. AMIN...

bestfriend

as a human being...we can`t live by our own. dlm hidup ni everybody needs friend and especially a bestfriend! bestfriend x perlu ramai...bkn senang nk cri bestfriend rite?? bestfriend means he or she are the best for us..! luckily..i have more than 1 bestriend..praise to GOD, this kind of peeps sudi jdi bestfriends aku..if kte nk jd bestfriend utk seseorng, means that kte mesti kena loyal, a good listener, a good peeps, n of course we always be there even our friend is in trouble..~~ dgn rasa rendah diri, aku nk cakap aku saaaayangggg sgt those ppl yg jd bestfriend aku! thanx guys for these sweet friendship........

NOR AQILLY SYFIEKA<<<< this is my 1st girl i called her BESTFRIEND..we`re friend almost 15 yrs..wow!!! lame giler!! ktorng kwn dr skolah tadika smpai la skrg..she`s very nice to me.penyimpan rahsia yg baik exectly..love you dear love!!!

AMIRA AZ-ZAHRA<<<< really stick to her till now..we share about the same things! that`s why we are stick 2gether..hehehe..aku kwn ngan mira time form 5.even perkenlan ktorng sgt2 singkat, but i`ve a good instinct into her. that`s why we are become a good friend..we share about the same dreams n hobbies!! KOREA!! hahaha..planning ktorng nk p korea hrp2 jd nyata.LIKE!!segala msalah ktorng kongsi brsama. sgt2 terharu sbb die sgt2 la setia mndengar luahan hati aku...even skrng pon..i really need u right now.uhuuuuuuu...sedih::(

SHUHADAH AZIZ<<<< she is the princess of RAJA LAWAK for me..hahahaha..miss her jokes n big laugh with her..agak lama x ketemu. sgt2 rinduuuu!!! dlu..when i`m in trouble, she likes to make a joke and by time, i dpt throw away the tears n prblemma utk seketika. kt cni, no one can replace her. miss u like hell ROCKY!!! geng kapak aku!!!! arghhhhhhhhh

~rindu bertandang lagi~

recently..my mood is..RINDU!!! i miss my family too much..and...the most is my mommy monster!!! hahahaha..maaaaa...adik rinduuu!!! x sbr la nk blk..uwwwww!!!

my mom is evrything..skang ni rindu gila2 kat mummy..rindu nk mkn mskan die, nk tgk tv sama2, nk jln2 sama2..can`t wait!!!

almost 3 months x jmpa family n the two little cutty kids of course my niece(julia) n nephew(daniel)..lama giler dh kot x tgk bdk2 ni..seems like i have no adik.dua bdk noty ni la yg memadatkan kepala aku..time x jumpa rase nk jumpa sgt2...tp time dh ade dpn mata rasa nk karate jer!!! 

ciksu riiinduuu la kt julia n daniel!!!! arghhhhhhhhhhh

kalo la aku ni watson yambek dh lame dh aku pecut p KL..!! hahahaha

budak kiut Julia

a lil` noty Daniel

grrrrrrr...mood skrg sgt2 gedik utk balek..nk balekkkk!!! x sbr nk tgk daniel yg dh pandai cakap.x saba! x saba! x saba!!

the reasons why i`m crying~~

we guys either women or men as a human being akan menitiskan air mata whenever we`re sad, happy, angry n act. so, that`s normal beb! aku dan air mata mmg x dpt dipisahkan..heeeeee..but i`ve my own reasons why i`m crying.bkn sbb manja tp aku mmg suka nanges..hahahaha..aku pon x sure why. mybe ade brlaku abnormalities in my physiology of eye..utk keterangan lanjut..jom bersoal jwb dgn doktor!! ngee~~~

• aku nangis when i`m in a very anger situation..huh!! biase la, bile kemarahan nk explode kan aku tahan gler2 utk x p lempang makhluk bangang itu..so, automatically the tear come out!! xleh tahan beb...

• in sadness..of course la kna nangis.kalo x..xde feeling la derr..bila time sedih, nangis akan buatkan aku dpt menghayati saat2 kesedihan tu.hahahaha..that`s my way!

• time happy keterlaluan pon aku nagis gak..bkn otak x bape betul tp bile kite ketawa terbahak2 mcm nk sawan secara automatiknye air mata tu kuar..so, x pelik pon kan.

• i cried whenever some freaky ppl yelling at me..kesabaran ade batas gak derr..oh no!! allergy to this kind of ppl! gurau2 gak..tp kalo jokes tu dh menegakkan bulu idong aku..that`s too much! wa xleh sabar dh ni..nak nangessssss!!! waaaaaaaaaaa

• lagi aku terharu giler2 bile the ppl around doesn`t care about me..contohnye mak saya!!! bkn x care..sometimes, when mom used to be too busy, x smpat la nk brsembang either meet up, secara x lngsung aku sedihhhhhh...huwaaaaaaaaaaa......!!

• laaaagiiii la sedih kalo org marah..arghhhhh!!! aku cukup2 sedih kalo org mrh aku. if that`s the reasons make some1 getting mad at me..it`s oke..but kalo org marah aku sbb bnda yg x ptt utk marah...arghhhh!!!! ape lg..jom nangesss!!!

• time skolah dlu hr2 aku nangis sbb hri2 my mom picked me up too late..bkn manje sgt pon nk nangis sbb tu..tp sbb aku takut! why not..1 by 1 aku tgk org len blk smpai la tggl aku sorng2 dok depan gate skolah. takutttt..time tu aku takut dgn perogol brsiri..if u ols jd aku u ols akan rasa yg sama jugekkk...

• rindu...!!! sy rindu family saya!! mummy... i miss u..in that case, aku nangis jgk..nk balek! nk balek!!uhuk100x

so, for those people yg slalu ejek aku dgn melampau2 tu..nahas u ols tau!! kalo blh..aku nk jd kuat mcm org lain..tp, x blh. so, jdi la dri sndirik..nunite guys!! ~out layan perasaan~

countdown for the end of 2011..!!

i`m a year 3 student of nursing training...bakal menamatkan pljaran in the end of year 2011..feels like dying menanti detik tu..huh!! ckup x sbr nk keluar dr sini..x tau la nk ckp camne....mybe aku masih lg dlm fasa pnyesuaian diri dlm bidang yg aku plih ni.but, seems like i haven`t get it enough. for a final year student cam aku ni ckp x minat nursing mmg x patut..nak x nak i`ve to.


sem ni nmpaknye prktikal makin mncabar..MANAGEMENT!! aku gerun...rsenye a lot of things aku x tau n kurng mahir..management means aku kna manage wad or my own patients.kalo dlu, ckit2 bgtau staffnurse..tp ble management i`ve to do on my own.byk bnda nk kna tau..for exmples, what kind of treatment for any kind of disease,what should i do when my patient in any condition, treatment in emergency, and...i`m dead if doctors or surgeons or pakar soal aku x dpt jwb.fuh!! mati......! grrrrrrrr


anyhow, kt cni aku dpt byk experience yg mencabar keimanan..dgn environment kt cni yg sgt hazard..trutama org2 kt cni..sgt2 pelik..huh! org ckp, hidup kte x mencabar if we never faced in any dugaan..kt cni..byk kngan aku ade..byknye yg pahit la..jeng3x!!! tp bez....at least aku ade pengalaman hdup..hehehe

bersukan..bersenam! woohoooo

ni sume kwn2 nursing aku...*peace*

ni pic kenangan posting kt Batu Gajah..group posting yg best giler!!

but, one thing i should remember..jd nurse x smstinye aku akn jd nurse for the whole life..nursing scope are very wide.aku blh jd cikgu sains or biology n anything yg brkaitan. i`ve to change my mind! think +ve ayu!! go! go!! nt aku blh further study n pilih any medical field yg aku suke..who knows someday i`m gonna be a dietition nurse kn? hehe..insyaallah..amin

waRkah UTk IBu

Ya Allah Ya rabbi Ya Rahim...aku memohon padamu Ya ALLAH kau jadikanlah aku seorang anak yang berguna kepada ibuku..KAU tegahlah aku dari berbuat dosa dan derhaka kpdnya YA ALLAH. sesungguhnya aku ingin jadi yang terbaik di matanya. Ibuku yg kau kurniakan sngguh x ternilai harganya..Aku panjatkan kesyukuran dan sujudku padamu YA allah di ats kurniaanMU memeberikan seorng ibu yg amat berharga.doaku padaMU, KAU lindungi dia, kau panjangkan umurnya, kau berikan kebahagiaan kepadanya..AMIN.....<<--- DOA ADIK UTK MA....

my heart cried whenever i see ur face...no one could feel what`s deep inside me..my smiles doesn`t meant i`m in great. i adore u..i need u...i miss u mom!!! I cried whenever i see u cried.. no calls from me doesn`t mean i forget u. u are always in me..MOM!! can u please forgive me for what have been done? i`ve sacrifies everything without u know what the reason is..thanks for raising me up..u were pampering me for everything! don`t be upset mom...i`ve try my best mom..........no matter what do u think about, i noe i`ve doing well..i will and i do for u. 

IBU

Aku masih ingat

dan akan terus ingat

sehingga akhir hayat

dulu engkau banyak menderita

aku masih ingat

dulu engkau banyak menangis

aku masih ingat

dulu engkau banyak berkorban

apa saja

aku masih ingat

dulu engkau berbalut ketabahan

membesarkan aku mengenal kemanusiaan

aku masih ingat

dulu engkau berlantaikan semangat

mengasuh aku menjadi insan beriman

aku masih ingat

dulu engkau berdinding kegigihan

mendidik aku menjadi anak soleh

aku masih ingat

dulu engkau merumahkan setia

memelihara aku dengan kasih sayang

menjadi manusia berguna

aku masih ingat….

aku masih ingat….

tak kan mudah aku lupa

karena jasamu tak terbalas semuanya

karena tak terenang sepenuhnya

di laut budimu

ibu……..!!!!

aku masih ingat

mengucapkan terima kasih

dan akan terus ingat melafazkannya

sehingga akhir hayat

aku masih ingat

segala yang murni itu…

I hate diz part...uRGhhhh!!

• Today is my 2nd day in college...as usual, having class from 8am to 5pm..GOSH!!! 2 hr kat kolej dh cukup buat aku jd gila babeng...stress!!!!!! sem yg mkin mencabar bile dh msuk tahun ke 3..i`m going insane right now!!

• research+ esaiment+ management+cross+ minit mesyuarat and all kind of paper works buat aku sakit mental! *sigh* i know...it is same goes to others..but keje aku makin brtmbah since kena buat minit mesyuarat la..report la..crazy! crazy! crazy n it`s crazy enough!!!

• baru hari ke 2...seems like i`ve to facing about 5 month onwards to slave myself  for this journey...nothing easy to be success right?? hemmm...it`s such a challenging journey for this semester..what to do...

• nk balekkkkkkkkk skrg jugak....uhuuuuu!!!!! GOD...i beg u to put this stress away! how could i nk cool down myself if keje mmg melambai-lambai utk dibelai. aku hampir sawan! ah..ah..ah

• kt cni nk ckp..aku benci taip menaip ni...power point la..taip report la..taip esaimen la...tp taip kt blog xpe..hehehe

• wanna cry!!!! hr2 kene bgun awl...dan hr2 jgk aku imej aku serabai sbb bgun lewat.uwaaaa!!!!! 

jom nyanyi...Lalalalalala

it`s such an awesome song by Gita Gutawa..let`s sing along..

KEMBANG PERAWAN

Ketika surya menampakkan cahayanya,

ku gapai hari terangku,

menanti sebuah cerita,

yang pasti akan terjadi didiriku

[Pre Chorus:]

Kini ku mulai mengerti artinya cinta

Walau senda tawa,

hatiku mulai merasa,

bila dekat lelaki aku pun malu

[Chorus:]

Akulah kembang perawan,

ingin mulai merasa,

perasaan yang pasti,

milik semua insan

Aku mulai jatuh cinta,

papa biarlah aku,

menikmati semua,

anugerah di hidupku

[Pre Chorus] ~~ [Chorus]

Aku mulai jatuh cinta,

papa biarlah aku,

menikmati semua,

anugerah di hidupku…

Triffle In the making....!! nyummm...nyummm!

hey evrybody!! u`re watching sugar!! hehehe...sebenonye..dlu kan...aku bercita-cita nk jd pastry chef tau..hrp2 one day i`ve my own bakery ala2 dunkin`s donut ke..who knows right??hehehe...mmg aku mls n x minat masak but i love to learn on how to make pastry mcm biscuites,cakes, desserts and sume yg brkaitan la. so, ni resepi bru yg aku belajar dr my mummy dlm musim cuti ni..haaaa....ade jgk faedah nye selain keje wajib aku korek idung..lps tu p masak kn??hahahahaha...hadoiiiii..sedap betoi!

kt bawah ni aku juz nk sharing2 ngan u ols la....

gambar hiasan

Bahan-bahan

• 1 tin susu cair
• 1 sd besar gula
• 4 sd besar tepung kastard
• 1 mangkuk air- utk dicampurkan dengan kastard
• ½ biji kek gulung sederhana saiznya
• 1 tin buah-buahan campur- asingkan air dan buahnya
• 1 peket agar-agar jeli kristal Nona
• 1 mangkuk air panas
• 2 cawan whipped cream( krim putar)

 

cara-cara

1. 1.Panaskan susu cair dengan gula. Kecilkan api.
2. 2.
3. Bancuh tepung kastard dengan semangkuk air sejuk. Masukkan bancuhan tadi ke dalam susu cair yang sedang mendidih, Masak hingga betul-betul pekat. Tutup api.
4. 3.Di dalam bekas berasingan, susunkan kek gulung spt di sebelah. Kemudian, basahkan dengan air buah-buahan tin.  
5. Masukkan buah-buahan tin hingga habis dan ratakan di ats susunan kek.
6. Tuangkan bancuhan kastard ke atas susunan buah-buahan tadi.
7. Untuk jeli, larutkan jeli bersama semangkuk air panas. Kacau hingga sebati dan tuangkan ke ats adunan.( mengikut kesukaan, x nk guna jeli pon xpe)
8. 2 cawan krim putar tadi diblend
9. Akhir sekali, tuangkan krim putar yg dah diblend dan ratakan. letak dlam peti sejuk dan hidangan siap!

*P/S: fresh fruits or pourie also can be use. x smstinya coctail. sila rujuk gmbar d ats..

SELAMAT MENCUBA!!

Happy New Year 2011!!!!

tup..tap..tup..tap...dah pon masuk taon 2011...honestly, saying that aku sgt sedih nk tggalkan taon 2010. why?? sbb utama..umo aku akan meningkat..dari 20thn jd 21thn..padahal umo aku baru je masuk 20thn on 25th december lps..yela, nt kalo org tgk ic aku lahir thn 1990, xkan la die nk kire bulan tu dh msuk ke blm..msti la they assume as i`m 21 yrs old..ummm..mummy!!!! i can`t believe it i`m now a 21 yr old girl!! young lady already!dgn gaya aku ni sesuai kah jd young lady?? mulai hr ni...aku nk jd mcm lisa surihani..ngeh3x. so, what i`m predict in yr 2011???

• study!!! insyaallah ..as usual la...study last minute..hehehe..i`ll never promise yg aku nk jd a bookworm bcoz i love study in the last minute! aku siap join group lg ok! hahaha

• habis study! hahahaha..saat yg aku tunggu2...x sabauuuuuuu!!!! aku nk berambus dr kolej ni cpt2. booorinnggggg kowt! bkn mls blaja but the sight there are not condusive utk study. kalo la suasana die cam kt korea kompim aku rajin study!!! *FUH* betoiii...x tipu....kalo tipu tuhan marah..heeeee

• having my own car with my own money....can`t wait!! hrp2 impian aku nk beli kete in the end of the year tercapai..bkn x nk tggu keje.tp if aku mampu utk 'bela' kete sndirik why not kan?? penat aku collect duit tau! plus blh la meronggeng sakan time2 cuti for a while aku dpt keje..AMIN.....

• MONEY MATTERS....!!! money...money...money....aummmm!!! i love money!!skrg bile dpt pegang duit sndri by my own..bru la aku tau betapa seksanya pikir psl duit..so, sempena taon bru ni..aku nk mengamalkan sikap 'berjimat cermat kuasa dua'!! no more belanja sakan like b4.pegi kau setannnnnnn!!! jgn hasut aku lagi....arghhhhhhhhh!!

• laugh..laugh...laugh!!!! kah...kah...kah...kah...mcm ungka je bunyik...emm..taon ni aku berazam nk jmpa besties aku yg x dpt jmpa last year..cedih....it`s been a long time not seing my rocky..so i`ll make sure impian aku utk adakan slot melodi terhangat gandingan brsama rocky berjaya!! yeaaaahhhh!

• pencarian jejaka idaman????? haaaaaaa...pentingkah?? hemmm..no comment..!! aku rse pnting sbb umo aku dh meningkat..and yg x pntingnye sbb ia mmg x penah penting dlm idup aku..hua300!!